Conversations with Sheilah

I seriously don’t get people who leave the head while eating fish -this is a weird combination of words but anyway…you get…..like really, the whole point of eating fish is literally the head…especially eyes….yummm…..Anyways, let’s just say next time I’ll be minding my own plate. So ….that among other stories had me a little peeved this week. Now I really just have to have me some fish as an act of vengeance for all the un eaten fish heads…what a waste! So what’s up? How you doing? Are you longing for some fish head too? Something better maybe? Someone? What are you up to?  It is really true that when you get older, days go by faster, like how is it March already?….I’m starting to cross some things off my bucket list for the year…..like adding some titles to my bio…literally the math isn’t adding up…by the time we find the mans plus the whole nine yard….DRESS…if I may?  SEEMS LIKE AN ETERNITY! On the brighter side though….I’m all for equality so we… (Who haven’t checked this bo...

 I struggle to justify my love for words…I have very few in my vocabulary…..and whenever we are in a conversation and someone says something I didn’t quite catch…chances are…I’ll probably ask….sometimes I will just ask even though I already know…it’s interesting to hear another person’s perspective….especially if it’s an idiom….or a word that I would never naturally use in a sentence…..I will sometimes take a mental note of something said because it sounded goofy, or smart or if it just had an easy flow. I also admire people who use their words with ease....it’s like hey! Can we be friends? CRINGE WORTHY! I have written more cringe worthy things I promise….these same words have a way of coming back to bite me. It’s a toxic relationship…. But one we are not planning to let go….  MORE CRINGE WORTHY? Not enough cringe I guess! Since the goal is to have something written down….we are going to strive for consistency by any means regardless….so here goes the process of finding somet...

 How consistent can consistency get? Whatever that means….Well the paragraphs are getting shorter and shorter….for sure….by the end of  the month I am hoping we will still have a few lines…if not… then at least a title maybe? NO!!  Because we have higher standards than that… don’t we? So like you might have guessed, I am doing a small challenge just to see how regularly I can keep up…it is kind of the premise for today’s episode of  “nothing to say but we are going to try anyway’’……so enjoy!…. A few months ago I watched this movie ‘A cure for wellness’ . For a whole two and a half hours I was fixated on the screen you would think I’m certainly following the story.  Truth is, the title itself was confusing enough and the story, even more so but at the same time, I couldn’t stop watching…these individual scenes were so interesting I figured that I’ll somehow catch up to the story line in slow drifts. It was only when the end credits started running that I real...

It’s Friday and my wine glass should be half empty by now but I’m here because…well I’m here… ‘‘The best promises are the ones you keep to yourself’’.  I heard this sometime this week and it has kind of been the nudging voice whenever I am tempted to take a recourse on my ever growing to- do list .Ok, I’m trying to sound like I have an extra busy schedule lol….My schedule is pretty regular and on my to do,are things like making pancakes for breakfast or soaking my bedsheets so chill… I’m not trying to run the country. And I’m only clarifying this because I’m one of those people who panic a little when someone says they can’t show up for something because they are busy. ‘Busy’ is a word to be taken seriously because it sounds so profound! I imagine they have tons of important things to do and deadlines to keep…and literally every second counts so it is a word that instantly invokes the need to apologise for imposing….and suddenly my own to do-takes a back sit and I very gladly will ...

It’s already February! It has indeed been a minute since I came on here….I was not even sure the link works anymore. Speaking of links, the one goal I have for this blog this year is to create one of those actual websites….I heard it’s in fact possible to learn that on You-tube! Ok, I didn’t hear that, I know it is possible…it is also possible to learn how to whistle. I searched for this…and I found some tutorials….I am not sure what had led me to do that but I remember being a bit disappointed when it didn’t work, so I resorted to learning how to twerk instead…and this I have mastered….Very few people who know me will believe this! Understandably so because, it’s been years of trying lol….too bad I have just never gotten around  knowing how tiktok actually works…( read never bothered  because I think I’m too old 😅)…I would have loved to prove some people wrong…Ok, let’s not get carried away… As usual, I am here by chance… honestly, it might just be because I did some quick m...

T his year is going to end a little early for me….from the energy in the air, it seems most people are just done already…and for obvious reasons. I’m ready for the New Year too, albeit this time round with a lot more appreciation, and better balance between expectations and reality for each passing day….because Covid aside, life in general is very unpredictable. It is also one huge learning curve, with rewards and lessons in equal measure and a lot of special moments. Well, it’s the special moments that we long for…but unpredictable as life is, chasing happiness and fulfilment is like trudging through fog…even with the best laid plans, we can only see so far… because of that, what lies even further….we bank on hope. With this in mind, the intent is to savour every passing moment, and to cherish the people that make them special. To hold them a little closer, to love them a little better, to show them they matter more that they would know….to treasure the little things,…the simple hello...

                         So I’m sitting on my bed, wracking my brains for things to write. Usually, I don’t schedule when I write because I wait to be ‘in the mood’…a habit I am trying to unlearn because I realize that if I am going to achieve some level of consistency, in writing   as in other areas of my life, I have to throw in a schedule....and stick to it. I have made schedules before, many….sticking to them is a totally different struggle. Well, I’m yet to start the unlearning process. Today, I’m riding with the feels….also quite literally.   Most of the time, before I get down to write, an idea strikes when I am in pursuit of something else ...almost like an epiphany of sorts. It reminds me of this other thing….love. You’ll just be going about your business…trying to focus on the woman you’re becoming and it knocks you over…suddenly and without notice…before you know it….you have fallen in love! You will...